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A Writer's Journey of a Secluded Mind

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J Elyzabeth

Writing, reading, diving back in to the world of games Minecraft Rules!!! Well when I have everything caught up. Such an addiction. :D Oh, I'm a little eclectic and can be found many places. Twitter, Instagram, Facebook Look for J Elyzabeth or Jelyz78 Found on Xenodome (play.xdmc.com) as Jelyz Write on!!

Life’s catching up

Adulting ain’t doing so well

Trying to find the happy for me

Ostracized

Sanity fleeting

They don’t

I don’t

I have a reason

Somewhere

I’ll find it

Reaching for something

Can anyone hear you

Silently screaming

Screaming loudly

Sanity fleeting

Feelings elusive

Loneliness encompassing

Slowly drowning

Can that happen

Can you drown in nothingness

Can you be nothingness

Same stories

Are they true

Sanity flees

Life ensues

And nobody sees

Nobody hears

Glass houses

Silence

Silence is deafening

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Yeah. I can still access my account by my phone. Ummmm…. the computer is stuck in safe mode. 

I can still use it. 

I can still walk. Not run. We waddle quickly.  It aint pretty. 

I still write like i talk. Slang. 

I can still pursue world dominance. I mean come on! (Ok… that was in bad taste)

I can still write. Write small. Write often. 

I can still write my book. 

But tomorrow. Tonight? Tonight Iโ€™m netflixโ€™n and chill ๐Ÿ˜€

Okay. I just started getting comfy. Mistake. Now the place is going to be sold. And I have to move. And I have to actually start at my second job to get paid. I’m hired, but I haven’t worked yet. Extenuating circumstance beyond my control, well because they are not mine.

But really? So now I have to find a place to live. AND let me tell you. It is not easy. Price versus convenience ย versus laundry facilities versus travel time. I mean really, which one is going to be easiest to get home from in the winter after the second job?

I mean this is the place I will be at for the next 5 years at least. And will I even like my neighbors? All I want is a little one bedroom that is relatively secure, because hey, single person living on their own. So I have to look at the crime rates, the listed person locations. Umm… anxiety attack anyone?

I am not liking this real world grown up stuff at all.

But the plus, once I move into my new place after I find it, I should have time to Minecraft and Write and Write and read… and read?

It’ll all be good. I just need to trust in God and let go.

Believe me I haven’t forgotten you. I miss you all very much. Life is taking yet another turn of events.

I am in a desperate search for a second job. Just a few hundred more a month. What was it? Two, three years ago I wrote my finances blog? Well they haven’t gotten any better. I now have a plan, and intend on following it. Which is why I need the job. The job will allow me to actually pay this debt off while I live life.

And my nice cushy living conditions? Well I have worn out my welcome mat. Time to move on. And soon. Where I currently am at will be sold, sooner than I would like. Thus the need for a second job.

And to add to the hullabaloo, I am trying to start school in June! Now this I want to do. Go back for my IT degree so I can get a job playing with data and code. Something I love to do, but have felt to time constrained to do it.

And for those of you who have followed and paid attention. My son is now a teenager and lives with his father. It is for the best all around. I think I love him even more. He is much happier and freer where he is.

Knitting? Yep still knitting. In the middle of the 2nd Kome mitten. Not so sure I love how the color is coming about. And yes, I believe I have 5 projects in some sort of array? Disarray? lol Ravelry (sp?) is a wonderful site. I would say my tireds and lazies is showing.

As for writing, a million ideas and no I am not. I should be I really should. I really want to and I plan to just as soon as everything settles. Believe me I have not forgotten where I left Frank and Mattie. I so need to go visit them.

Hugs&Kisses

Okay, I am probably one of the worst writers. That being said, I just found out I have two reviews of Shoulders and Zippersย on Amazon. ๐Ÿ™‚

I feel really bad. I haven’t been paying attention.

My excuse? Well knitting… and my job is paying for me to take classes in Access, Excel, SQL Servers… So …

Yeah no excuse. I have been reading voraciously. And if you have read any of my other posts, well I am back in church.

Even going to church, still think I would love to have two men… Well maybe… Not so sure I know what to do with one. ๐Ÿ˜‰ lol

But yes, ONE of my books has reviews. I need to pull up my big girl panties and finish the others. I think some are just waiting on reviews.

Ravalry (Knitting Site) has become a favorite haunt of mine also.

Gaming… well I am down to Minecraft. When I get the chance. Not much time for anything else.

Goal 2017: Publish one book

And get everything loaded into Excel ๐Ÿ™‚

Hugs&Kisses

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