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A Writer's Journey of a Secluded Mind

Believe me I haven’t forgotten you. I miss you all very much. Life is taking yet another turn of events.

I am in a desperate search for a second job. Just a few hundred more a month. What was it? Two, three years ago I wrote my finances blog? Well they haven’t gotten any better. I now have a plan, and intend on following it. Which is why I need the job. The job will allow me to actually pay this debt off while I live life.

And my nice cushy living conditions? Well I have worn out my welcome mat. Time to move on. And soon. Where I currently am at will be sold, sooner than I would like. Thus the need for a second job.

And to add to the hullabaloo, I am trying to start school in June! Now this I want to do. Go back for my IT degree so I can get a job playing with data and code. Something I love to do, but have felt to time constrained to do it.

And for those of you who have followed and paid attention. My son is now a teenager and lives with his father. It is for the best all around. I think I love him even more. He is much happier and freer where he is.

Knitting? Yep still knitting. In the middle of the 2nd Kome mitten. Not so sure I love how the color is coming about. And yes, I believe I have 5 projects in some sort of array? Disarray? lol Ravelry (sp?) is a wonderful site. I would say my tireds and lazies is showing.

As for writing, a million ideas and no I am not. I should be I really should. I really want to and I plan to just as soon as everything settles. Believe me I have not forgotten where I left Frank and Mattie. I so need to go visit them.

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Okay, I am probably one of the worst writers. That being said, I just found out I have two reviews of Shoulders and Zippers on Amazon. 🙂

I feel really bad. I haven’t been paying attention.

My excuse? Well knitting… and my job is paying for me to take classes in Access, Excel, SQL Servers… So …

Yeah no excuse. I have been reading voraciously. And if you have read any of my other posts, well I am back in church.

Even going to church, still think I would love to have two men… Well maybe… Not so sure I know what to do with one. 😉 lol

But yes, ONE of my books has reviews. I need to pull up my big girl panties and finish the others. I think some are just waiting on reviews.

Ravalry (Knitting Site) has become a favorite haunt of mine also.

Gaming… well I am down to Minecraft. When I get the chance. Not much time for anything else.

Goal 2017: Publish one book

And get everything loaded into Excel 🙂

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“For what does it profit a man if he gains the whole world and loses or forfeits himself?” (ESV Luke 9:25)

Having read John 9:1-5; let us think. Is something really a “choice”, a “sin”, a “punishment” ? Or is it mearly  a way for us to see God’s works. Yes we have free will. But persecuting others because of their religion, sex, race, sexual preference, perseverance (the US’s one percent), their social standing, their IQ, EQ. All that we point and say “Attack! I am afraid because they are different!” And we do. 

No question, we hide behind our religious beliefs, misquoting, misguiding. Twisting words because for sure that translation was a mistake and it couldn’t mean me. 

We are told throughout the New Testament to LOVE. Love as God loves us. Love as a child, as a Father, as a brother…

Love thy neighbor as thyself. 

And if this is how the Religious love. I see why so many struggle with the Bible. I say Religious and not Christians. For to be a Christian is to be Christlike; and I in my sinful, judgmental mind. I say that for I suffer that human weakness, striving not to and therefore in my own paradox. I have not seen what I would deem a “true” Christlike person. Though I have met some who are close, until they spout hurtful religious hate and bigotry because they don’t understand how someone could “choose” to be that way. 

How then do we rectify this? Not us.

I realize that this blog has gone on a spiritual bent. For some reason left field is  calling. Do not fear, but please be patient for I am building something. Either love in my mind. Strength for what is to come. Mana for thought. I have not forgotten my stories. But some are hitting too close to home and require some inner-work so that my characters can grow and become three dimensional and not one.  I thank you for sticking with methrough  this. 

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It is not through good works one will be saved. Not through obeying the law and persecuting others. Is this not judgement in itself? Are we to judge knowing in our hearts that we have sinned? But what sin is not pardoned if we follow the greatest  commandment: to love. For in true love there is no judgement. 

And the only work required:

“The work of God is this: to believe in the one he has sent.” (NIV John 6:29)

How then can we spew hate and persecute those “different” than us.  Do not quote scripture at me when you yourself have left your children to fend for themselves. 

I can only apologize that I have not a way to help. The snares in my own life are far more than I can handle. I can only preach love, though I cannot feel it. My own child is with his father, not because of man, because of courts and judgement: but in a moment of clear lucidity I knew his father had a far greater capacity to love than myself. There he is safe from this self-destuctive spiral I find myself on. This merry-go-round has room for but one passenger and I would wish it on noone. 

Be careful how you raise your children so that sins of the father do not reap what you have sown. In man’s quest for excellence we have so poluted the world that what was once cured by faith may no longer be. I am how I am for a reason, though I know not what it is. It is through faith that I put one step in front of the other. Yes look both ways, but move forward. 

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